Yesterday I

• Kel was awake before I was, and told me she was possibly symptomatic of losing the pregnancy.  I pulled her back into bed with me, and just went over that this is all a  good sign, no matter what.  I wanted to think about action-orientation, so we though tthrough all the things that might need adjusting if things were going south.  Included a plan for her to come home from work, maybe needing to rebook her time with the girls on Sunday.  I made a plan to make her edible medicine up.
• I spent most of the morning researching dosing to get it right.  Went with 10 g coco butter for a 12 cookie recipe.
• Had a pretty useless work day.
• Good news was Kel made it through the whole day. I expected her to come home at any minute.
• Skyped with Steve later at night.  Both of us ended up staying up later than we'd have hoped, but was good to talk to Steve.  Chatted a lot about my shitty work situation.  Steve pointed out that I'm probably channeling a lot of bad learned shit from the parents.  I fear he's right.  I wish I could be different.
• He also pointed out that the only way to get the dosing right was experimentation.